Being a grown up sucks.
My diploma came yesterday. Having it in my hands makes the fact that I am done with college very real. I knew I was done with school. I was ready to be done with school when the semester ended and accepted that I wouldn't be going back anytime soon. Having the diploma here just makes it true. That chapter of my life is completely over.
Now I have to think about being an adult. There are so many decisions and choices that I need to make. Where do I want to work? What do I want to do? Where do I want to live? For a long time I said I wanted to move out of Northern Utah. Vegas and California have been tossed around as possible destinations since they are warmer and have the entertainment industries. Now that the possibility of moving is real, I'm not sure what I want. I know I want to a place of my own, I'm just not sure how far away I want to go. Am I even old enough to take on the world yet?
Another thing that scares me is getting a new job. What if I get there and I really hate it? What if I get a job and I realize that I really don't know how to do what they want? Jobs are not like clothes. You can't return them if you decide you don't like it.
I feel like I have so many decisions I need to make and no idea what to do. Being a grown up is not as exciting as it seemed when I was 12. I'm going back to being two. Someone pass me a sippy cup and a blanket. I think I need a nap.
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